{"id":424,"date":"2016-02-24T18:15:59","date_gmt":"2016-02-25T02:15:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/?p=424"},"modified":"2016-02-24T18:15:59","modified_gmt":"2016-02-25T02:15:59","slug":"better-than-light","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/2016\/02\/24\/better-than-light\/","title":{"rendered":"Better Than Light"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>You will,<br \/>\nno doubt,<br \/>\nbe relieved to learn<span class=\"text_exposed_show\"><br \/>\nthat I have given up<br \/>\nany notions of angels or signs,<br \/>\nor surreptitious messages<br \/>\ncoming from wherever you are<br \/>\nto where I still am.<\/span><\/p>\n<div class=\"text_exposed_show\">\n<p>I am done.<\/p>\n<p>I am done lighting candles<br \/>\nand lying on my knees<br \/>\nin the freezing rain<br \/>\njust in case of You.<\/p>\n<p>I am done listening for your voice<br \/>\nlike some hapless hound,<br \/>\nleft alone to howl at the moon<br \/>\non a forgotten street corner.<\/p>\n<p>I am tired of living<br \/>\n(if that is what it is)<br \/>\nas if, at any moment,<br \/>\nyou might suddenly call me<br \/>\nback inside to read your palm<br \/>\nor to warm myself by a fire,<br \/>\nfashioned just for me.<\/p>\n<p>I am finished waiting<br \/>\n(like that poor hound),<br \/>\nto feel the warmth of your hands on my neck<br \/>\nor for my knees to buckle like a paper doll<br \/>\nunder the familiar weight of your arms<br \/>\nwrapped around my waist<br \/>\nin circles of sorrow.<\/p>\n<p>And if the gods have so-designed<br \/>\nthat mine is to wait forever,<br \/>\nbetter by far<br \/>\nto wait, to sleep, to dream<br \/>\nwhen darkness comes;<\/p>\n<p>to drink then from Mystery&#8217;s well,<br \/>\nand breathe deeply of this dream,<br \/>\nwhere I know the sweet scent of your skin<br \/>\n(just between shoulders and chin)<br \/>\nfar better than Light.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>You will, no doubt, be relieved to learn that I have given up any notions of angels or signs, or surreptitious messages coming from wherever you are to where I still am. I am done. I am done lighting candles and lying on my knees in the freezing rain just in case of You. I&hellip;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-424","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/424","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=424"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/424\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":425,"href":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/424\/revisions\/425"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=424"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=424"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sandyleonvest.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=424"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}