Self Portrait
one thing
for sure.
Someone
is going to bleed
in this picture.
Someone always does
by the time you reach
the end.
Someone will have bled
by the time
you lay down
your brush;
the red
will be out of control.
It always happens
that way.
Red
everywhere
seeping
through canvas,
spilling
over the banks
of what you intended.
Funny,
the portrait
started out
simple enough
simple lines
simple strokes
Simple.
but once underway,
the center
would not be moved;
the marrow refused
to be excised.
There would be
no chorus of angels
to calm
the sound
of childhood
breaking
under a silver boot;
no artist’s hand
gifted enough
to smooth
the jagged edges
of never again;
no masterĀ of finesse
to buff out
the red-stained
fingerprints
on the walls
of your dreams;
So,
you trace
over and over
your self
you want
to erase
the red
the part
that tells
the truth
about truth
the part
that knows
there will always
be red,
no matter how perfect
your golden brush strokes.
Like I said,
Someone always bleeds.
In the end,
someone is always
left lying
on their knees.